posted : Saturday, March 13, 2010
title : Congrats DAD!
Hey Dad. Thank you. Thank you soo much for the heart-breaking news. Well, I hope you're happy mum cried infront of you dad. Well, congratulation. Two weeks more and you're being released from that place and I thought we were going to be back as a family again, but I was wrong dad. What? Suddenly you told me and mum that you're married to another women? Behind us? Well done dad. Congratulation. When the words came out from your mouth, I acted cool. But when you left the room, tears roll down my cheecks dad. My heart was breaking. But I know, my heart wasnt as breaking as mum. Not only that, you even wanna bring that women into our house? Woah, dont you think that's too much dad? Do you think of mum and my feelings? It hurts okay dad. And you still have the cheeck to say that you wanna bring me out to AMK at this hour, to find that women and kiddo? Still have the needs to find them uh? I acted as if I dont care, but I do care dad. I do. Sigh. Do you remember when you were realised from prison last 12 years, and there I came running to you and you just shoved me away. Do you remember? Do you remember it was sister's fault and you hit me in public? Remember that? If you dont, I do. 16 years dad, 16 years, I was brought up without you. And looking at friend's family with their dad around, I was jealous dad. I wished that it was our family. I really do that. Sometiemes, I even wished that you would come back at live with me and mum. But that dreams wont come true huh? Only the three of us? Happily ever after. You used to told me that I was your favourite child cause im the last one, but now? There's a seven year old kid that you claimed to be your step child. And you pitied her? Do you pity me, dad? I know you dont. 4 years back, when you were released from jail AGAIN, you promise me you wanna take care of me. But did you? You started your bad habbits all over again and left me and mum at home, alone. Do you think its fair dad? For 16 years, i've been brought up by mum. Everything i want, mum buy for me using her hard-earned money. Have you ever buy me things that you earn it yourself? Yes, i was grateful to you cause you told mum to buy me a new phone. But, its mum's money dad. Not yours. I try to joke with you. Looking at you makes me feel so happy Dad. But, not now. At the sight of your face, I hate you dad. I really hate you to the core. I swear. I feel like murdering you. You get it? Like seriously. You're too much dad. Way too much. You coloured my eyes red tonight dad. 16 years uh dad. I remember. 16 years and I wont forget. Trust me dad, if she stays in this house, you wont see my face anymore. Im going to leave the house. Try me dad. Try me. Im not being rude. Im defending my right. I hate you dad. I hate you, seriously. I hate you :'( Thanks for the 16 years dad ('; I appreciate it. A girl without a dad for 16 years, Your favourite girl, AyraahKynnora. Labels: hurting truth |